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....my mind is blank....

for almost a month now, i've been working on a split-shift basis - i.e. 3 hours in the morning starting from 5:00 AM 'til 8:00; then 6 hours in the evening starting at 5:00 PM up to 11:00.

....hmm, the number 5. i haven't thought of it before as i'm thinking about it right now. i wonder what the significance of this number in history could be. i think there's not much. so, why am i thinking about it now? perhaps it's the start of my work. or maybe, the best thing i could remember of my childhood was when i was 5. and then again it could alse be because my last relationship lasted for 5 years...i don't know...i'm not sure...

i wanna think that my mind is playing tricks on me again. but i don't wanna dwell on it. i'm just tired maybe. after all, my circadian rhythm has been disrupted. i'm having a hard time getting enough sleep. with my work schedule at hand, i'd say the most hours of sleep i get is 3-4 hours a day on weekdays. i just hope that this phenomenon won't take its toll on me in the future..amf..i'm blabbing again...

oh, did i mention my mind is blank?...there you go...the mind..the tricks..the play...